The past few days, I’ve been fighting a battle in my own mind. I’ve not been feeling well lately, with nausea and abdominal pain, coupled with uncontrolled anxiety. I’ve had IBS since I was five, but lately it’s been worse than usual, with the new addition of persistent nausea and a loss of appetite. It’s been really hard, and I found myself very upset yesterday, wondering how long this fresh hell would last. I had an appointment this morning that I really wanted to keep, and yesterday it was looking likely I would have to cancel.
I’ve also been suffering emotionally lately, with painful thoughts of regret, fear of losing people I love and fear of being seriously ill. I was on my last leg with all of this yesterday, and I felt I couldn’t endue this double assault on my mind and my body. I prayed furiously and desperately to God, and He showed up!
I was at His feet. I told Him I was tired and scared. I told Him I was frustrated and I wanted to be blessed. And I told Him I knew He could help me. He picked me up and carried me. He created in me a strength to keep going. The Holy Spirit took hold of me and comforted me.
Today, I am grateful and humbled by the way He has lifted me up. In Isaiah Chapter 41, verse 10, God says: “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” [NIV Bible] I felt Him pick me up! I could feel His presence with me, and I knew that He truly understood everything that was hurting me. I was dismayed and afraid, and He soothed me and helped me release the nervousness that had me in a vice grip.
Today, my nausea is gone. I was able to keep my appointment, and He is guarding my thoughts to keep me from a downward spiral. He has prompted me to proclaim my faith that He wants to bless me and heal me again and again in my mind. He set up a hedge between me and the awful thoughts that were consuming me, and I am so grateful! I praise You, Lord, because You are so good to me! Thank You for loving me and blessing me! Thank You for guarding me heart and my mind! Thank You for upholding me in Your righteous right hand!
God can and will do the same thing for you. Come to Him and tell Him how much you hurt. Tell Him you’re angry and tired and desperate. Tell Him you’re frustrated and afraid. Tell Him you want to be blessed by Him! Have faith that He will help you and keep proclaiming your faith that He will act on your behalf. He will show up!